Achtung baby

I had a minor setback on Sat night after my party when HIM and our other friend stayed after everyone left. I don't what it is, but HIM just seems so cozy. I could just crawl into his nook and stay there forever. But unfortunately the nook is closed for business this time of year. They must be cleaning.

I hate the setback. It always happens and worse I think it has to happen. Without the setback things would be too easy. When are things ever easy? I watched a Brazilian film were a little boy says something to the effect of "mom says God never gives us more than we can handle. But I think sometimes he forgets and kills us". Actually, I may have made up the death part but I still like it.

So I said to myself last night this is stupid. Let's just get this over with. Should I still get hung up on HIM? A sign would help me. That's right, I actually wanted a sign. And tonight as I was chewing on a piece of pizza I remembered this morning as I was pulling out of my garage headed to school and there was HIM's aunt waving at me from the sidewalk across the street. Was this what I asked for?

I don't know anymore, i just don't know.