Do-over

I felt bad for not being friendly enough to the guy in my class who asked me if I wanted to go get a sprite with him at the beginning of the semester. I should have been nicer when I was tanner. Now I want attention and don't know where to get it. So when I left class the other day sprite boy was in the hall and he looked like he was smiling at me as I walked past so I smiled back and said hello only to discover he was actually saying hello to someone behind me.....snap. Serves me right.

We had stake conference this sunday so I wasn't able to charge at my nerd crush, but I did see him Friday night and acosted him then. I actually went to an intramural football game with some friends because I knew there would be men there without fail. When we left nerd crush was walking by and said "I never see you at functions outside of church". "That's because I don't go to them" I replied. "Why is that" he foolishly asked. "Because you have never invited me" I smiled. The look on his face...priceless. He fumbled around for a responce until he agreed "that could be a reason". It was beautiful.

I'm over IT and slowly over HIM. There is nothing wrong with me and nothing wrong with HIM not liking me. The nice thing about crushes is they can go away. Especially if your crush has small hands, falls asleep too early and can't always follow the conversation at the same speed as everyon else. Its really too bad though, I like having a crush. But its even better when it works out. So now I'm listening to the stupid sounding advice I gave to one of my friends, "Onwards and upwards". Well I'm on to cookies and upwards of 4 candy bars a day. Good times.