OH, so you're back

I totally wussed-out last night.  I got Tara to go to their house with me, I just couldn't go it alone.  Right when I got there I parked it on the couch so when HIM came up I could avoid the awkward hug thing.  So when I finally saw HIM it was like, "hey, welcome back!".  I didn't even get up.  Then HIM sat next to me on the couch and still nothing.  

This is when you know I really like someone - I can't show it.  Things weren't weird, it was just everyone hanging out again like normal.  Except everyone knows.  We went to a friends house and then went back to their house where I immediately went home because I had to get up early this morning.  

This whole time I was planning on at least hugging HIM hello.  Why couldn't I just do it?  I get embarrassed by the stupidest things.  It felt like that time I went on a date with HIM and I couldn't tell HIM that he looked good because.....I don't know why exactly.

But HIM did get a nice new pair of jeans...really nice.