Sunday, December 9, 2007

Double vision

Have you ever just known something? You just know it. There is no evidence, no physical proof, you just....know? Does it make you feel ridiculous for knowing something that you can't explain and can't justify?

Has there been something you just needed?  A pull beyond your control?  I hate not feeling in control of my senses.  I hate not being in control in general.  Most of the time I resent this feeling of longing, of being pulled in a different direction.  

I never wanted to be a person who felt like they got every little sign and signal.  That a loaf of bread dropping on the floor actually meant something more than a loaf of breading falling.  But now I'm worried that not wanting to see into anything has left me always seeing past things.  

J'suis fatigué.

2 comments:

Marge Bjork said...

I feel such tension just reading this

tara said...

It must be hard to be so normal. Most people either over-analyze everything or are completely oblivious. How easy. It can be rough for those of us who try to walk the fine line between perception and rationality.