I'm all out of love - I'm so lost without you..

HIM lied.  HIM lied to me.  To me...what?  It all came out the other night while hanging out with Mike.  Apparently things were a little different with the ho he was dating this fall when he was supposed to be dating me.  I'm over it...now.  

I guess I'm just secure in the knowledge that my status has been elevated in the L-O-V-E department.  That's right, hold on to your seat belts because I have now been given the " I love you...to the lowest degree" status.  So...how many stages are there in the love rating scale?  Should I be looking out for love to the medium degree next?  

Although it would appear that "I love you" has been said, it has not.  Neither of us would agree that it has been sincerely used.  Call me crazy, but I love you to the lowest degree is not, I repeat not, an official I love you.  You know, I'm getting used to all these close calls.  I think if it finally ever happens I won't hear it because I'm so used to brushing off these close calls, it will just be instinct to not pay attention.  It's good and bad that we keep carrying  on this charade.  Neither of us feels pressure and one is not getting their heart stepped on by the other.  But this lazy attitude we both have is not going to push either of us into just saying it already.

I feel it.  I've felt it for a while.  Not consistently, just really strongly during certain great moments.  I'm not sure that great moments really constitute saying something that cannot be taken back.  

Im glad that we both move slowly and carefully but it drives me crazy at the same time.