Sweet Nothings

I've been considering taking a job this summer that would take me all over the country - in a good way.  I would work a couple days a week and then travel around the rest of the time on someone else's dime.  But this would of course separate HIM and I for quite a while which is not what I want.  

I told him this last night over a delicious breakfast burrito at Beto's, another of my random weird cravings.  "I'm telling you this because I want to know what you think because you are a factor in decisions I make now.  I know that in the end the decision is mine to make but I like you and I think you should be able to tell me how you feel about it" I said.  HIM got really quiet.  In fact, he was mostly quiet the rest of the night.  I don't think HIM's too keen on me leaving...without HIM.  

But the real jewel of the evening was when he drove me home and topped his "I think I'm going to go for the hand-hold" comment.  I could tell he wanted to say something but he wasn't so I picked and prodded until he finally did.  

"OK...I don't really know how to say this, this might sound harsh.  I'm not going to tell you I love you tonight...but it's basically there."

I couldn't help it, I just started to laugh.  "Well, I'm not going to tell you I love you either" I replied laughing.  HIM is waiting for a moment when his chest feels like it's going to explode  and he just can't hold it in any longer.  I can wait.

Last night was the first time it hit HIM that we have an expiration date of sorts.  D-day.